Self esteem, my worst enemy.

Every time something goes wrong, I blame myself. No matter if it was me or someone else. I believe the worst of me. And yes, I'm married, but that's even proving tough for me right now. I see us drifting apart and I don't want that.

But then again, I caused it so I can't see it getting any better. Depression and self esteem go together. It'd be nice to dig out of it. I'm hoping to attend a Self Esteem course at my treatment centre in January. That mgiht help me. Any good books out there?

Help!