(((((Thimble )))) My dear girl...I love you...and I think you DO have this sliver of hope, I can see it in you. I really can. I think there is this hope that you CAN get better and you CAN have a life worth living. You are very insightful, compassionate, funny, lovable, loving toward others, caring, sensitive and very, very kind.

My feeling is, my instinct tells me that there are such deep and painful issues, that if you could find it in yourself to trust, to actively TRY to trust a therapist, you could do it. Maybe work on trust and the reasons it is so hard for you in the beginning. to do it in the office with a therapist. I know you will say no way. But, oh, my dear, dear friend, I KNOW you want to have a more peaceful life and feel better. You CAN I know you can. You are SO full of life. YOU too CAN be brave and open.

Can you take even small, baby steps toward being open with a therapist. I agree, maybe the one you are with isnt for you, but can you try again. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain