If you are still dealing with this stuff unsuccessfully, then only therapy with someone who is expert in PTSD will give relief. I can't do EMDR either. It's taking forever... but I am still the same age I'd be if I hadn't been going through therapy. Yes, in the long beginning I didn't even realize I was having flashbacks, only feeling the after effects? Things are "better" now... and I recognize many of the triggers ... no, there is no cure for PTSD. sigh. sorry.