((((((((((((((SJ)))))))))))))))

I felt each and every word in your post. It is very frustraiting when nothing works. Not the meds, not journaling, not T, not anything. I am so sorry your feeling like this. I too take comfort hearing from others who feel the same but at the same time, I wish no one would every have to feel such pain, dispair and lonliness.

Sometimes nothing works for me. I try to do everything I have been taught by my T to help my depression but sometimes I think its a never ending battle. Other times the fighter in me comes alive and I sware, I will overcome this.

It helps to be alone. I know some people may tell you that isolation isnt the answer. But I dont think its so much isolating rather then not wanting people to see me like that or making other people as miserable as I am.

I like to sit on my deck and look out at the sky. Its soothing for me. I can let go of my thoughts for a bit and just look at the color and the clouds and it gives me a sense of peace.

I hope that you feel some relief soon. Try to find the fighter inside of you to help you through this.

As always, continue to post as much as you need to. I will do all I can to help in anyway I can, even if its just listening.