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I am so sorry you are feeling so hopeless, but I know from having a Major Depressive Disorder; these "episodes" are inevitable & make life quite unbearable............Would you believe me if I said, "it will pass" Yeah, lousey answer....
Maybe you check out the "quotes" I posted for "jmo"??? (In General)
It's late; and I think it might be worth your while?
May peace find you soon................DAYZEE9