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This is an excellent place to vent, as you well know. Ty for letting us know what is going on in your life lately. When you are staying quiet I'm concerned about you. I am when you talk about your problems too, but then at least you're expressing it and giving us a chance to tell you one more time that we're still here and we care and we understand.

Since you asked for input, recognized the pattern as far as what all the bad things happening are connected to, and you feel like it might be nice to be a widow, what might you do to improve this situation? Any number of us would love to help you out with this, but we can't - it has to be you. Why do you let him stay around and continue using you? You don't need him. He doesn't help with things. The money is yours and you have control of it. You aren't dependent on him. He's not supportive. He hurts you. When are you going to kick him out? Why have you let him stay? Maybe kicking him out would be doing him a favor too - maybe he would learn to stand on his own two feet and act like a human being. I doubt it, but there's always the chance.

I'm glad that your mom is getting a little better. Thanks for the update on her too - I've continued to worry about her.

You know that I care about you, and whatever support I can give you is yours. I wish that I could do more. I want so much for your life to improve. It sounds like your job is going well. You're good at it - I hope that you feel good about that. Alex loves you so much. You are a wonderful person and you deserve to have a good life. I'd love to be able to give that to you, but you're going to have to give it to yourself. First of all, you have to want it for yourself (and for Alex too). You have so much potential. I wish that you could see the good in yourself.

We're here - vent any time you feel like it.

Love,
Wendy


<font color=red>"Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing." -Harriet Braiker</font color=red>