Thread: Goodbye PTSD!
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Old Nov 23, 2009, 11:56 PM
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About 5 years ago I was in an abusive relationship. Once I finally left I had nightmares constantly as well as hypervigilance. I have been in therapy since then and within the last year my therapist released me and said I was well enough to work through the rest on my own.

So these nightmares have always been the same. I'm standing outside, my ex pulls up, comes over and just starts pummeling me. Sometimes he kills my dog but inevitably he always beats me and then takes me away and that's when I wake up sweating.

Well over the last couple years they have started changing. After a while I started having them and they would start out the same way but in these I would fight back. I would still lose and my dog would still be hurt but I was fighting back.

Well a few months ago I had this same exact dream....started out the exact same way. Only this time I beat the living **** out of him. I'm talking I grabbed him and just went to town. Then I chased him out screaming and yelling and woke up feeling empowered.

Ever since then the dreams have stopped. Since that last dream I haven't felt any hypervigilance or any symptoms of PTSD. I feel like that was my mind's way of working through it and after more than 5 years I feel like I'm finally free. I have been waiting for this dream to happen again but it hasn't - I think I'm finally cured. Never ever thought this would happen.