Okay... where to start....

My dad is sort of abusive,mostly emotionally,but sometimes physical when in a really bad mood. Anyways, he seems to be putting me down,ALOT! I am trying so hard to ignore the things he says to me,but it just hurts so much sometimes. It's worse when he does it infront of the youth group I go to... because those are possible friends!! I've almost made a few,then he'll say something about me,and then it just blows up. Sometimes the things he says just makes me wanna go kill myself to make it all stop,the painful words that just hurt. Anything that goes wrong,my dad makes it clear that it is my fault. Now anything that happens,I dunno whether it is my fault or not. In ways I feel like it is. Like anything that happens is my fault. Also that I have no future to look forward too,no college or nothing because in his eyes i'm nothing..i'm stupid,an idiot,and worthless. How do I ignore the painful words that he says that brings me down????
Any words of advice or anything,would be very appreciated! Thanks

~*~A million words would not bring you back,I know because of tried. Neither would a million tears,I know because i've cried.~*~
~~~~Sabrina~~~~~~~