He doesn't want me back - I have finally accepted that it is all over (I spent the last week hoping for a different outcome).
He's still in touch with me but after a discussion on a couple of days a go where I got all annoyed that he was going out with friends to dinner (Me jumping to the conclusion that he was going on a date..) We had what would be our first argument. In the 5 years together we probably only ever disagreed 5 times.. and they weren't arguments really.. just misunderstandings I guess.
I can't keep hanging on to hope that really is not there.. my irrational side says that he can't just have stopped loving me and that the love is there somewhere and there is a key that I just can't find.. Makes no sense really. He's really tried in his heart and head to figure out what happened... sadly the love is just gone... No explainations, no reason and no answers....
He says it's not what he wanted either, but after two months of thinking about it in his head before telling me, I don't think that it's going to change.

Yep Friends is going to be horrible and I'm still just hanging on to what I can so that I lose it all. My rational side says STOP.. it's over and time to move forward.

Main problems now is that he's living in the house we bought together (I moved out) and I just want him gone from there as feel ownership over what he does in the house....