So my brother and I have a pretty good relationship. We hang out, we laugh endlessly together, we really do have a good relationship. However, he's 3 years younger than me and I feel he's a bit more progressed in life than I am. Thanksgiving is coming up and I know that he's going to be talking all about his new job, girlfriend and all of that. I am proud of him for what he's accomplished in life, but I'm also a little jealous. I'm unemployed, single, and kinda fallen on hard times in life. I know that when we're sitting there eating and he's talking about all of the good things in his life right now I'm going to feel like a failure because I'm the older brother and I've got nothing impressive to say.

I love him, and I know it's not fair of me to be angry or displeased with him for talking about his life. But knowing I'm going to have to sit there in front of my entire family and have nothing to say other than "I'm still trying" makes me anxious and not want to attend. I dunno, like I said I love him I think it's just something inside of me that also kinda makes me resent his success. Very mixed feelings about all of this.