Thank you everyone for your comments! I think I will try some of the things suggested!

With my husband, lately he keeps sending me less and less money. He is required by the Army to send me 800$ a month. This month he somehow conned me out of 400$ and sent only 300$. Now he says he wont pay anything at all... Than even after his selfish ways I tried to be the mature adult and let him spend his vacation with her.

I was going to drop her off at his parents house and let him spend 2 weeks with her at his parents with their supervision. I had my rules laid out as well, like no taking her out at night, no leaving the town with her, keeping her safe and healthy, playing with her and all of those things. I also told him hers and my situation right now with the money. I told him he needed to send money on the first.

I told him that if he didn't care enough about Alyssa eating and having clean diapers than he would send the money, and if he didn't than he didn't deserve to see her.

He agreed to give me money. He did however say he wouldn't give me a dime until I dropped her off. I told him send 1/2 on the first and the other 1/2 the day I drop her off (to help moving out... I plan to get my own place while she's gone and move in to make it easier)

He said no, he would only give me one check at the air port when I picked him up...

This is when I realized what he is doing. He is trying to control me right now and I will not budge. I am in control, I call the shots with my daughter and I am being nice enough agreeing to let her spend time with him, and he's still trying to control the rest. Even without him he thinks he can control me. I wrote him back after that....

I told him he WILL follow every one of my rules and I will not budge. If he doesn't want to follow my rules he will not see her.

I feel so empowered now! I knew I was free before but not until this moment did I actually FEEL free! While everything is a huge mess, a wreck, I still feel powerful and like a new person!

I was physically free from him since the moment I left, now I feel emotionally free from him as well! I am a new woman and I feel like I'm on top of the world right now...

Now I hope that since I am now free of his control, will I become free of the insecurities he instilled in me?

I want my confidence back, I want to love myself again and I want to love every bit of who I am. I have the control back and I see only self improvement from here!