Hi billieJ,

Yea, I guess I dont have Parkinson... I should not say that, but, sometimes I feel it
would not be a bad thing, because, frankly, I cherish my health, well, whats left of it,
but my drepression, anger and despair are pretty heavy!

Yes, I think too that the meds are not the perfect answer even if they help me a lot,ç
really cause, otherwise, It would be far worse. its pretty bad already...

You see, my wife is not a really nasty, mean person, and, she doesnt behave the way as she is always right, but, she has a mood problem. she also expect too much, she demands too much since, me, on the contrairy, i am a pretty lay-back guy and I let other live their lives and rarely demand anything (as long as it doesnt affect me too much).

and, having many problem issues (that goes along with the depression) I also suffer from a bad case of culpability and, one of the worse things to happen to me is when I think I am ok, when I think i am doing nothing wrong to nobody and that i am secure in that, my wife often comes with her usuall big face (meaning she is again pissed or unhappy) and, each time, it makes me go nuts! often, its something as stupid as
me practicing one of my hobby to ease my stress of work or long days knowing that I helped at my best doing the dishes, cleaning a bit, dressing the baby after the bath.

First, I often talked to my wife about what i dont like or what i dont feel good about.
after a while, i started talking but in a more agressive way because anything I told her before, well, i have the feeling that she heard but not listened. now, i dont speak at her and my anger grows.

these days, she knows i am ultra-angry, so, she lays low, but, she will come on strong again anytime soon, and, since not being a violent guy and even less a woman molester, I am affraid of myself... because, if i dont do nothing to her, i will do it to myself!

Sorry to be like this and thank you for your interest and suggestions!

I really appreciate!