peaches, i wonder if your t is in some way reinforcing a sense of failure or frustration for you when she seems to continually try different techniques and then abandons them at your first sign of frustration or upset. i think your t may need to help you get thru these hard places rather than keep setting you up for failure by abandoning the work once it gets difficult for you even if you protest. maybe you need to go at a slower pace but continue to go thru whatever the issue/work is. i really think this could possibly be a lot of the source of your therapeutic troubles and it is something your t is causing--not you. it's almost like she can't tolerate your upset feelings and pulls back on the work. i'm sure she doesn't want to see you go into a crisis but i do think she may be re-injuring you by this. she needs to be your rock and cheerleader telling you you can do the work rather than reinforcing a sense of failure that you can't do it. rather than believing in your strength it sounds like she is believing in your weakness and that is very damaging. if any of this resonates and i haven't totally misread your situation then i think talking with t about this could be quite helpful.