Lotus don't be too hard on yourself ... having any disorder isn't the end of the world. My Therapist says each and every human being has all of these personality traits, it's just some are more prolific in some folk .... you can still lead a normal life, in fact for me personally I'm glad I had the diagnosis as I am more aware of things now, more clued up on why I act in certain ways and I'm a very caring and loving person ... there I said it It doesn't come easy saying things positive about ones self So lets see a smile and look how many of us are here to support ya sending hugs my friend, it could be something much much worse ... Ophelia xxxxx