Sorry in advance. I don't know if this is readable.
I am very sad and hurt and crying. My husband called me last night and yelled at me for being stupid and crazy and abusive to him. I never beat him up! I never hurt him on purpose! He said he hates me. I am so sad and low feeling so much hatred for myself! I hurt myself tonight . And last night. and I don't care I can't feel it I can't feel anything i am numb see I am as crazy as he says!!! I hate myself.