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Old Nov 25, 2009, 10:26 PM
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Miracle1986 Miracle1986 is offline
feeling very alone
 
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Location: Lost in thought
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The husband is a bastard and I love him. He is not a bastard in the sense that he is in any way abusive or anything like that.

He is a bastard because he has no job and therefore no money, but yet he spends money that we don't have and puts the accounts
in the negative ALL THE FREAKIN' TIME!!! Hence why we can't go anywhere for Thanksgiving... because his truck is below empty and
he has no freakin' money to fill it up!

We are constantly having to "borrow" money from people. He promises to pay them back "when I get the money."
News flash: he ain't gonna get the freakin' money without a freakin' job and he says he looking for one, but yet he only
fills out an application like once every 3 weeks (if that often)!

We are moving into a new house soon and my dad has graciously said he would get my husband enough work to pay rent.
(We will be renting from my parents.) That's rent... what about electricity/water/trash pickup, etc... WHAT ABOUT FOOD????

My husband thinks "We'll make it work" because I get disability so we do have like $650 coming in a month.
But as we have seen time and time again, it's not near enough.

Hell, my husband is still having to make truck payments of $256 a month that he hasn't not been able to pay in like two months.
I keep telling him he's gonna get the damn thing repossessed!

I feel like he doesn't care about whether he gets a job or not. And therefore, he doesn't really care about providing for me!

I know what you're thinking, "well you could get a job too." I have tried. I am filling out way more applications than my husband,
but it is hard for her to get a job because I have a disability and no one wants to hire someone in a wheelchair.

Ugh... this whole not having money situation is why we are living where we are now (with my husband's family)! I hate it here.
My husband's brother and sister are mean to me I have expressed our feelings to the husband time and time again, and it's like it goes in one ear and out the other!

I don't know what to do anymore! I am feed up with this ********. I know it's not good for me to live like this...
in fear that when we move out, we will have to wonder where our next meal is coming from, because we can't afford to buy food!
@#$% @#$% @#$%!!!!!!!!
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