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so sorry that your having a hard time .....sending you a


I know your -pain about selfhatred in fact I was going to post how I am fighting self hatred really bad right now and I have also been hurting myself...but like my T told me today....the ones treating us bad are the ones with the problems not us....your not crazy your just in alot of pain right now and for that I am so sorry...wish I could reach through here and hold you tight....your hubby has the problem NOT you...he does not know how to treat you properly and that is all about him and his stuff....NOT you....I totally understand the not feeling...I struggle with that too....being numb is a way fo protecting ourselves...your not crazy for doing that and neither am I ....please take care and do not be so hard on yourself....I am trying to do what I am telling you to do...I know it is hard but lets both try....hang in there