thank you for writing kd, my h and i have been disscussing things all day, not really getting any where, but at least talk ing and not talking about divorce anymore i think. i haven't felt any more real bad pains so I'm just bidding my time. this has been the hardest year ever- therapy plus being truely sick sick sick. having to give up most of my mobility. this week my t- is gone and my kids for the most part, I feel so utterly lost. but i had to stop and realize that i'm not struggling over wanting to be alive or not any more. A good scare does that for you I guess, reminds you of how you really do want to live. i will get help if i have another bad episode h- or no- thanks for your support.