These past few months have been really hard on me. I am always in pain, I lost my job, I can't get unemployment and all I can do is wait and see if I get approved for disablity. I'm so tired of waiting. I don't sleep, I lie in the dark for hours with migraines. I keep taking the medicine, but I still feel terrible. I don't go out because I'm afraid I will hurt myself and others.

I want so much to be happy. If I can get just one happy hour I would feel like there is a chance for me, but everyday gets darker than the next. What am I going to do? I don't know who I am anymore. I don't even want to try either because I don't have anybody that cares about me. I just want to be able to have some peace.