Rap.....what you said is soooooooooooo true.....I go looking for something to trigger me too...espically if I am sitting on the edge of doing it...and it is tempting to compare my damage to others too that post about it here.....the trigger symbol just draws me too it...and then I get upset afterwards....so stupid I know....but am guilty of doing what you said....
you said also that if it is deep enough that it lays open and you see fat that you should see a doctor....I am so scared and embarrassed to do that...how do you deal with doctors and ER's about self injury... I just keep it my secret.....I am so ashamed about all of this...
UGH


PS so sorry if this is highjacking did not mean it to be...