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I know Rap told us in another post that if the cut is deep enough and lays open and shows fat that you should seek medical help...but HOW can you do that? I feel so ashamed and embarrassed and so guilty that I cannot face people with what I have done..I did it the other day and it is exactly how I described...I did not tell anyone I have only bandaged it and put neosporin on it....but it is still painful and bleeds off and one still......I hate this so d*m much....I hate that I cannot stop this....but seeking medical help really scares me even more..how do you tell them what you did?????..afraid they will put me in the hospital or call the police and just look at me like I am crazy and I already feel that way....UGH hate myself so much right now....and feeling so ashamed