People make fun of me in front of everyone and TRY to make me feel bad. I joined basketball because I heard sports relieve deppression. Well, to me, it doesn't. In the games I always mess up and sometimes make the team lose. It makes me feel so bad and that I can't do anything right. It is true, everything I try to do, I do bad on it. I'm doing horrible in school, I got a 1.2 GPA, I can't do any sports correctly, I can't even do simple chores without messing up. I don't know if depression causes these things or if these things cause depression. I don't even know if i'm depressed. I'm a dumbass who can't do anything right.

I started looking for therapy or anything that could help me. They are 200$ an hour, which I can't afford, so I'm here looking for alternatives. I honestly can't go on like this. I'm becoming suicidal and I need help.