Sannah- Maybe that is it. I have high expectations. I expect to talk about my husband and then get to inner work. I had to choose, the things with my H was really pushing at me, I had to go there, and, if I think about it, I knew this could happen. That the husbadn stuff was very day-to-day and I would still feel triggery from my week.

FooZe- Ohhhhh!!!!!! I did read something else, and now I am reading it differently. That my therapy IS working as it should because I am having this upset and am in a place where I feel like I dont want to live. I have hit some kind of wall. Is that what you mean? I think its true. Actually, I did talk to ftt about other things that I completely forgot that we went into. Quite a bit about my relationship with money. I have never gone there in therapy. And my realtionship with God and religion. I have quite a love/hate relationship with both.

So...I practice not seeing my husband from my vantage point...then Carnegie Hall?

I dont want to spend a lot of time monday with ftt on my H, but I have a story and I guess I have to tell her this. We were at Thanksgiving dinner at a friends house, it was fun, we all cooked, pooled our food, there were other guests, very interesting people, good conversation, the teens were together, the little kids were having their fun and my husband was engrossed in heady conversation and enjoying himself. I thought if he was going to be in a bad mood, it could be a disaster. But it went really well. We were going around the table, each one talking about what we were thankful for and my husband went on about ME! I almost fell off my chair! How grateful he is to be married to me for 16 years, how wonderful I am (), what a great parnter etc. After 2 days of posting on PC how I cant stand him! I feel like the biggest heel. I guess it doesnt discount how I am feeling about certain aspects of the marriage, but after this, it would be difficult to not feel appreciated. Well, even if he wait until Thanksgiving at a table with 35 people to tell me loves me, at least I know it. We always seem to mis-communicate.

My favorite movie is Gone With The Wind . The relationship between my husband and I reminds me somewhat of Scarlett and Rhett when they keep missing each other and never get the opportunity to tell each other how they feel. (I love old movies ) With my H and I, we have such a busy house, and there is so little time for just "us."

There is so much to work on and I still think we need couples, badly. I see in how I have been feeling about him in the last week that it is from MY vantage point. That it is frequently my inablility to see the overall picture, maybe its a borderline thing, maybe, I dont know, but each moment seems to be its own reality, if that makes any sense. Today's negative feeling about my H is not connected to yesterday's positive feeling. Its as if there was no yesterday or postive feeling.

My3sns- It means Flat Tire Therapist follow FooZe's link for an in-depth explanation

Thanks for posting that link to my FTT explanation. Im glad you posted it because I am still learning....