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Originally Posted by Treehouse
I guess that's why I've never understood when people say "T says we'll start trauma processing next week". Now I understand why I don't understand that!  |
Ftt said to me, when I first started seeing her, that we would be doing "trauma work" and I guess that is what we are doing, but I am not sure. I dont understand it either. Does it mean we will do something specific? Or work on tramatic memories that affect me today? I dont quite get it either.
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Originally Posted by Peaches100
Like I'm striving and reaching but i just can't grasp it. And it's so infernally frustrating!  My t has always been good about going in the direction that i lead, or where i seem to want to go. But honestly, i don't really know exactly what it is i need, or where i need to go. It's like we jump from this area, to that area, and try this technique, and go hither and thither where i lead, depending on what the current concern or trigger is. But we are trying so many different pathways, and maybe none of them to the end where they lead. |
Yes. I can relate to this. I talk about what I need to, but I wonder if what I talk about leads down a path toward healing or getting better. Or maybe I just dont see it. Maybe you dont see it either? Maybe there has been a lot of healing for both of us, we are on the path toward a more peaceful life, but it is not obvious to us. As far as your T not being able to help you any further, that sounds like a terribly difficult and sad thing to hear. I am wondering (with Bloom) if T might be reinforcing a sense of failure or frustration. Maybe she really doesnt feel equipped to help. And in that case, maybe you could give some thought, no matter how very sad, to a different T. Does she have anyone in mind?
Not that you are going to change Ts, but another thought is that if you should start with another one, you are not the same Peaches who began with this T. When I started with ftt, it seemed like I was started from scratch. And, of course, she didnt know me and who I am, but I am so much better able to describe what I need and who I am to her that the process is much faster and much more...."efficient" if you know what I mean.