About changing Ts. I have changed Ts 3 times. It wasn't like starting over because each time I was more aware of my issues and I got to them much quicker. I understood the therapy process better, too. So you don't necessarily have to start from scratch, though it depends on how quickly you feel connected to your T. I was fortunate to feel very comfortable with my current T right from day 1, so I "jumped right in" and got through the basics very quickly.

Peaches: I know you don't want to see anyone else, but wouldn't you consider having a consultation, at least, with someone else? I hate to see you struggle so long with the same issues. I think you're getting better, but who knows? A new person may have some ideas even if you don't switch.