I'm feeling really, really sad about this decision. All I want to do is talk to old T now. I got so sad yesterday about this relationship ending. Yesterday I cried about everything and I knew it was because I was upset about this. It's impossibly hard to let go of the safest, healthiest, most powerful relationship I've ever had knowing that no one is actually forcing me to. Nothing is making sense right now.

Anyway, thanks for your kind messages.