(((((Cafegrrl))))) I know the feeling too well. Uuuuuuhm, if you want , you can try checking out the Bipolar page and see if there is anything you recognize? I mean, I get dysphoric manias (or really, hyper depression) and it sounds kind of like you feel the way I do when it starts. It is really frustrating, and I hope that you have contact with a good p-doc who can keep an eye on your symptoms. Huggs!