I think eye contact has alot to do with self esteem. I have always had good eye contact with whoever was sitting across from me. Until now. I was really confident and secure about myself. I knew who I was and what I had to offer whether it was business or personal.
Now I find I have a REALLY hard time keeping the eye contact. I can start but it's seconds before I look away. I noticed that about myself right away.

Eyes are the windows to the soul. I don't want anyone to really see what I have become. I don't want them to see the hurt inside. I don't want them to see I am damaged. That there isn't so much in there to give anymore.

Of course I feel like I come off as cold, uncaring or distant. But you know right now in my life alot of those things apply.

So there's my input my dear.
Hugs,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell