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Originally Posted by deliquesce
i dont harbour a lot of anger towards the ppl who did what they did - i see them as products of their own short comings and i feel sorry for them. not in a self righteous way, just in a... it's a shame that that's the only way they know how to get what they want.
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Deli....
Just wanted to let you know that you are NOT alone in this. I don't feel any anger to the person who hurt me.
He was SO virtuous in every other way, and it is much easier for me to think that there was something about *me* that made him to do what he did. My T thinks I am not in touch with my anger....that I am turning all the anger I should feel toward him on myself. I think it might help me to be able to feel angry....but I just ca't.
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Originally Posted by deliquesce
pdoc disagrees with me really strongly on this point - he thinks that what happened was very calculated and purposeful, almost like they were cold blooded and evil and enjoyed doing what they did because it caused me pain.
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I think I can understand how scary this is to you. It is very sad and scary and disappointing for me to think what he did was so calculated.
I have ambivalent feelings about your pdoc being so adamant on this point with you. On one hand I am glad that he is trying to help you see something that might be more real than your current perceptions. On the other hand it feels like he is trying to make you feel/think a certain way that you simply may not be ready for.
I think it is good, though, that you are talking about it here and getting other people's ideas and thoughts. I think the more you talk about this and process it, the clearer it may become for you.
