Hey Sweetie, I am sorry you have to deal with this. Don't put blame on yourself. Your dad is the one with the problems not you. He's the one causing the hurt and pain. Who knows why. Maybe he was raised that way and never saw that his life could be different. Your's can though, remember that.

Maybe he is suffering himself but doesnt know how to express it and is taking it out on the ones he loves. That's not too uncommon unfortunetaly.

Whatever is causing him to treat you the way he does, it is his problem, not yours. Sadly, your the one who has to deal with it and suffer because of his meaness.

Your dad has no right to hit you. There is NOTHING you could do or say that gives a parent the right to hit. NOTHING.

I don't know you too well so I have to ask some questions. Where does your mom fit into all this? Do you have brothers and/or sisters?

You are stupid, worthless or an idiot. That I can promise you. You are allowed to make some mistakes. It's all part of growing up and learning about life. You'll be making more and more decisions for yourself and you will make mistakes too. That's COMPLETELY noraml.

You are smart and creative. I read your posts and they are not the words or thoughts of a stupid or worthless person. Trust me, it's true :O)
Big hugs sweetie,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell