This time of year is very difficult for me as I lost my uncle, aunt and Mom within 3 years. My family pretty much fell apart. This year....I decided it was time to make new traditions, new memories. So I hosted Thanksgiving at my house.

Well....I took Tues, Weds and Thurs off from work to detail the house and get to cooking! Dug up all the old recipies that we grew up on and had it all planned.

Tuesday, I was power cleaning. Up and down on a chair washing my walls (H was finishing up the bathroom remodel). Well....that night my knee swelled to the size of a ripe cantelope and I was writhing in pain.

H took me to the ER at 4:00 Wed am and they said that I had a lot of fluid on my knee. They put me in a knee immobilizer and crutches (and pain meds). Told me that if I expected to go back to work on Monday, I needed to just stay off my feet and keep my leg propped up.

Thankfully my husband and daughter picked up the slack and we had a nice dinner (10 people over). Although it was not possible for me to stay off my leg...we were running late and I just couldn't sit down.

Today....OMG I am sooo paying for it...and I am very frustrated! H had to go back to work today and he will be gone tonight and tommorow, he made me promise that I would stay off my feet. My sweet daughter has called me 5 times today to see if I need anything, but there is something wrong with me...I have always been the caregiver...for everyone...and I am not enjoying this helplessness at all!!

Why do I feel guilty?????