Hello, luzcelenia. You seem to think it is wrong to want attention. Everyone needs to know that he or she is valued as a person. Perhaps the problem is that you do not know more appropriate ways to get the attention you deserve. Harming yourself is not an appropriate way. Lying and manipulating is not appropriate either.

I expect you will need help to sort through what is now going on in your head and to get you back on track to a healthier and more satisfying life. Is there a school counselor that you could talk to? Whomever you talk to must know the truth about what you are going through.

If professional help is deemed advisable, I hope you get it.

Thank you for your post. Please let us know how you are doing. Good luck!