There's probably a lot of things I could do. I probably need some kind of mood-stabilizer medication and I should probably see a counselor because I'm getting more and more erratic as time goes on. I just don't want to get my parents involved with anything; I don't want them to know I need help. Since I'm technically a minor, that poses a lot of problems. I guess waiting it out one more year won't be a big issue... Heh, I've already been off medication for 5-6 years. And like I mentioned earlier, my school doesn't really have a counselor (goodness, my principal is so intimidating, plus she's never around anyways! I don't know, my school is retarded ). I'm just worried about going to college and doing something like I did in this instance -- when all rational thought flies out the window and there's no one there to stop me from doing something impulsive. Hopefully... I can get some medical/psychiatric help when I'm older, if I can ever get over my fear of doctors! *sigh* I feel like I'm a lost cause sometimes...