I hate the Holidays! I too am very very lonely and don't have anyone to really connect too!

Now I am already dreading Christmas! Actually thinking about it, I am ALWAYS FEELING LONELY and unloved. Like I don't even matter. So doesn't matter what day it is, although when The Holidays come around, it gets even more dreadful for me.

I go to Church and Pray and I feel like God doesn't even want anything to do with me!

Don't know how much longer I feel I can hang in here with these feelings. I am so depressed, hate myself, have alot of anxiety and fear! I am a mess!

Oh well, thanks for letting me put this down here!

Seamoods~