I have intrusive thoughts that at times scare me. For instance when we went on a cruise ship with an outside balcony stateroom I got the intrusive thought to jump. I have had the thought of seeing how fast I can drive on the freeway before crashing. I try to keep these thoughts to myself and when I tell p-doc about them it turns into a big deal and he wants to call my wife. I wish I had a good solution for you. When I was in the hospital a while back for 2 months my primary diagnosis was bi=polar with OCD. This meant the I got to go to another unit everyday for non=bipolar treatment which made me feel pretty outcast. They pushed 'exposure therapy' which really boiled down the idea that I must have a consequence somewhere in my psyche that will occur if I do not perform the compulsion. Pretty hard to do.