((((((((((((((IrishMe))))))))))) I'm so sorry you are struggling. I'm not dealing with COPD, but I do deal with other issues that have made my depression worse at times.

I know life can feel pretty bleak at times, but I do think that while we are here, we can make a difference in someone's life. Sometimes it might only be one person, but it's a difference that might not happen without us.

Do you have a therapist to help you with this? Sometimes, even when we know the end result is not what we want, talking through things with one another can help us. We are all going to die one day, but it's what we do when we are alive that matters, in my opinion.

I'm so sorry you are struggling with all of this. Would you consider going on antidepressants and/or therapy or anything to help? While it won't make you live any longer, maybe it could help you emotionally while you are trying to come to terms and deal with everything?

Please take gentle care and please lean on us if you can. We care about you.