(((((((Rebecca))))))) We are all messes. I think it is pretty much only we who get depressed who figure that out!!!!! I find that if I focus on jumping through the hoops to get where I want to be, then everything on the way becomes another hoop. No fun. I agree with pomegranate. Hmm. You are in Scotland. what can you do in Scotland that you can't do in the US. HMMMM. Get picked up by a military man in a skirt? Happened to me in germany. I still don't know what the poor soul was trying to say, but it sounded fascinating!!!!
I know it is frustrating there. I hope that it will get a bit better as your new project picks up and your depression gets a bit better. Huggs.