As some of you may know, I broke up with my girlfriend about a month and a half ago. It was, and still is, a hard fact to accept and I am still pretty tender about it. I'm starting to "get over her" but she is still in my thoughts constantly.

I've always been somewhat of a loner. I can do what I need to do on my own and nobody can tell me different. Or so I thought. Ever since losing her, I just feel incomplete. I think about going for a walk then say to myself "well I'll just be alone, she won't be with me, I'll just see other couples together and get sad so better to stay in". Same with going out at night, I just don't because I don't want to be out alone and watching all of the happy couples.

I'm wondering if while suffering from depression and heartbreak if I should attempt to find someone else. I don't know if it would be the best idea for me right now, seeing as I do still love her, and want to repair things with her. I just don't think that it will ever be repaired, at least not for a long while if ever. But me being alone is perpetuating my depression. Instead of going out I stay in. Instead of watching a happy movie, I watch something dark and sad.

I'm lonely, my "friends" are not really friends, they're acquaintences. I miss that one on one level of connection that we had, and I want it again. I kinda just feel like if I get my feet wet, start meeting new people, maybe I'll find someone that will help me forget about her. At the same time im worried it wouldn't be fair to whoever I met since I would almost be "using" them to make myself feel better. I dunno, should I give myself more time to heal or just get back out there?