Like Bluey said " I am afraid of not being able to function, of needing waaay too much support and help, of feeling so alone and frightened. I get all kinds of fears and have to use so much energy not to think about them."
that's me too. @_@ I feel like all i can do is merely maintain. That maybe one day... in the perfect circumstances... i'll be able to let all the walls down, see the **** and deal with it. THEN i can go back to my life (or maybe even have one).
Hugs, all!