Old T smiled and waved at me today, just like he used to do.

Old T keeps looking at me with that look, just like he used to do.

I thought I scared him away for good.

I only apologized for my actions, it does not mean an open invitation to my life again.

I don't know if I can stop that magnetization that seems to draw us together
again and again.

Why would it feel good to see someone who has hurt me beyond belief?

Why do I feel drawn into that web again?

What is wrong with me?

I feel so confused and excited all at once.