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i know you've written before how you feel a sort of almost spiritual connection with this old T. in my faith they talk about both healthy and unhealthy "soul ties". maybe at one time you had a healthy soul tie with this man but it turned unhealthy? i don't know, but i do think you have a soul tie with this guy and from things you've shared previously that he's done it does sound unhealthy. if you google the phrase "soul tie" or you can find lots of info on it but it is coming from a christian perspective so some of it may seem a bit weird to you. some articles will also have prayers you can pray to break these unhealthy connections with others where we feel so drawn to them and just can't seem to disentangle from them even after much effort. (i would have sent this to you in a PM so as not to get all spiritual on the board, but it says you don't accept PMs so i went ahead and posting it.)