I don't know, recently it feels like this whole SI thing isn't really a big deal. At all. Like, it just feels like this thing that I do, just some little thing I do only every once in a while, and that it's nothing, just a few little scars... I don't know why people freak out about a few little scars anyway. I mean, if it was some GIANT gash in my skin, or I was purposely missing a giant chunk of flesh, then yeah, I'd understand if it was a big deal... but a few lines... REALLY?? A few scars, what's so bad about that? Maybe it's really not a big deal at all. The emotions I've tried to remember feeling while I had SI-ed feel...idk how to describe it... fake? Like maybe they weren't real feelings at all, like maybe they were just pretend, like they weren't really valid... I don't know if I'm making sense at all, but that's how I feel. I can deal with these "feelings", especially if they're only temporary, and if I SI just when I absolutely need it, then I don't see what the problem is... I hope I'm not in denial, but god, it just doesn't seem like a big problem anymore AT ALL.
I'm just rambling... uselessly rambling...I actually have no idea what to think of this... or if I even have a point to this rant... just thinking out loud I guess...:/