Hi, I'm new here so I hope its ok to jump straight in with a question

I was reading Thimble's post on what if you dont want to get better,and it struck a chord with me.

Ive been in t for about 18 months, and at the beginning had a very clear idea of what I wanted to get out of it. As time has gone on more and more issues have surfaced, to the point where I am totally confused, and I now have no idea why I go to therapy.

I know that I dont feel happy, that my life is nowhere near how I want it to be and that I have huge relationship and trust problems, oh, and I am bpd, but I just dont know how or if I want to change. When t asks me what I want to get out of therapy, I have no idea. I usually say that I want to work the issues above, but deep down I dont. But at the same time I cant stand being and feeling like I am for a minute longer. I really like t, and i wouldnt want to see anyone else.

So, Im wondering if anyone has been through this and managed to work through it with t, or whether I should just stop going until I know what I am going there for, or any other advice you might have??