Thanks Bloom,

I will have to search for soul ties. The connection used to feel good and comforting, and still does but it also feels very scary because he has hurt me. All I know is when he is visible in my life I feel better, at peace. I have missed him. But I thought after what I did, he would stay a 1000 ft. away from me or at least be more careful with interactions with me. But it seems like the relationship is taking off right at the same place it ended 2 1/2 yrs. ago. (before I fired him). But it feels like it has progressed too quickly in just 2 weeks. Like he is too okay with me. He even knows how I feel, he has read my blog and my posts on this other site. But his interactions with me are well beyond just polite like. It feels good to see him again, but I guess I wasn't expecting such happiness from him to see me.

I am not sure why I feel the way I do, you would think after all he has done, I would have have several layers of protection built around me to protect me from him. (like I do with most people who have hurt me) But this feels different. When he smiles at me I just lose all my anger I have for him. It is weird because nobody else can do that except maybe my kids.

I emailed my T about this, and I will be relieved to see her after her holiday week off. So much to talk about. I know she gets this because she has a soul mate type friend too.

I only accept PM's from friends here, so we if we could be friends, we could Pm each other!