thanks for the reply.....
well...I think it's mixed up of Jealousy and loneliness....
but....big step....last night I went to salsa club with one of his friends....she texted me that she's going to the club on Friday night....well...I didn't...then last night, I changed my mind and I went to the club with her....oh...actually she texted me Thursday night too....oh...gosh...these people go dancing every night...I can't do that...it's too much for me....that was one of the reason I didn't want to be with him....
Anyway, I was so hesitated to go....but I made sure that he's not there....I asked her if she's alone...and she was....
I had such a good time....I stayed couple of hours then out! slept like a baby....that was one of the thing I missed since I'm not going out with him....I abandoned myself from dancing and that's my passion....
thanks again
Marjan
between....I called the counselor hot line from my work last night and she told me I can see a counselor for three free session....I'm going for that....got to clear my issues really