Welcome to PC It sounds to me like you know why you are in therapy, and that's a starting point. Have you tried to talk with T about it? It might help you understand what you really want/need.
I had no idea what I want from therapy when I started it (it sort of just happened) and I have only a very vague picture of what I want from it almost 1,5 years later. When my T asked me what I want from therapy last time, I just told her that I have no idea, it's just that I hate how thing are now and want them to be different, but don't even know how. So we agreed that if I figure something out, I will tell her, and now I just keep seeing her and we're slowly talking about different things that come up.