I am not sure where to start so I will just type what is on my mind and hope that someone will read it and have some words of advice.
When I was a teenager, I was diagnosed with both dyslexia and ADD. As you might have imagined school was very hard for me. I took Ritalin for the ADD; I think it also helped with the dyslexia. I went off the Ritalin my junior year. My grades went down but I still passed. I went off the medicine just to see how I could function without it. Everything seemed fine so I stayed of it.
After high school, I joined the army. I did all right in the army, just good enough to get by. The reason for that was that when it came to the classroom stuff, memorizing things, I just could not do it. Regardless of the troubles I did have, my time in the army was very good for me. It mainly helped me become more social. I do not know why but in high school, I had no social skills. I left the army about a year and half ago to pursue a college education.
Since I left, everything was going fine, the only problem was getting a job, and I am still having this problem. Then about 6 months ago, I started failing my classes. It was as if I was in high school again. I had no drive to study or pay attention in class if the topic did not interest me. Do not get me wrong, I did try. I tried to study but I could not concentrate. Even when I thought I had studied well, I failed. Its now to the point where I am afraid to study do to the fact that I think It may be worthless. Even worse, socially I can hardly function. I have always been nervous about meeting new people. Now I am literally having a panic attack if I ever have to meet anyone new.
I have other problems too that I do not feel like going into right now. I know there is medicines out there that could help me through this. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.