the part where u say you will always be more attached to him than he u i think is still the ache inside ..i dont think its the reality of what is possible...with time something else begins to happen...the real relationship comes to the forefront and it becomes more about being in an equal partnership working for our common good...

T recently offered something that i'd always dreamt of..something that in my mind would help balanCe the relationship...she seeing how traumatic her absences are..she said she feels she should be proactive and contact me during the breaks....i've always been able to email her, but to me feels as if i'm chasing all the time...her offering that has helped me tremendously....it really helped me see that there are 2 of us working at this togerher...which makes me more able to trust and hold onto her inside more...I'm sorry its a struggle for u to keep up 2xwkly....