Let me see if I have this right. You are in the throes of an energy-sapping illness in a place you would rather not be, doing what you would rather not be doing, and your therapist is not helping you. Is that about right?

To complicate matters, you most unfairly are beating yourself up, while telling your family you are fine. But you know you are not fine.

What are you going to do? May I suggest that you and your well-being are the most important consideration?

As difficult as it may be to accept, taking some time off from school now to deal with what is tormenting you must be given serious consideration.

Good luck!