I have my first proper therapy session this afternoon.
I was on a waiting list for... forever, and have had the assessment etc, so now I've been assigned my therapist and yeah, it starts today.

I'm very very skeptical. I don't see how it's really going to help, I think it will be focused on encouraging me to gain weight (which I can and am doing myself) and not really deal with the important stuff (the emotional side). I've never met any professional thus far that really knows what they're talking about when it comes to eating disorders and what's wrong with me (I tried telling the nurse in my assessment that there is "something else" like maybe borderline but she wouldn't listen.. they see a low weight and just see anorexia and a need to gain weight... she really thought it would all go away when I gained weight).

I guess I just want to hear your guys experiences with therapy. Does it help??? What do they focus on? Is it all weight weight weight? I want to gain weight right now, and I do what I want, so I don't need 'help' with that.... I'm just scared that it'll "come back" again so I want to work on my confidence, self esteem... I don't know what else. I know she's just going to harp on about weight and food, though.

Bad times, I really don't want to go. You wait so long to get therapy that by the time it comes you're no longer really sure you want/need it.

Sorry to write so much. I hope you guys are doing well x